Where I Am~Where I Am Going

I had the insatiable urge to write today.  On Friday, I took a look back in the pages of my message forum journal and marveled at all the amazing shifts I have made since I began to follow the teachings of Crystal Andrus.  With each telecourse I have completed, another layer of masks have been shed.  I have spent the past three months in self-love which is miles away from the self-loathing I used to dwell in.  I finally get it.  Oh, I am still working on the financial aspects and why I don’t believe I should live comfortably.  Those answers should come in the next weeks of this 12 week Mind-Body-Soul Transformational telecourse. Then, I tell you…look out.  I will totally be living my authentic self with a great surge of power.  I am actually looking forward to the end of April which will bring my 57^th birthday.  I have finally grasped the notion that emotions need to be dealt with, and rather than stuff them down with food late at night, I actually feel them, acknowledge them, and then deal with them. I am no longer in a “funk” of denial. 

I have had a great breakthrough in the area of relationships.  Oh, I thought I was going to slip slide down that narrow path to accepting someone else’s unacceptable behavior, doing something to please someone else and not standing up for myself.  But, at the last minute, I held my ground.  I spoke my truth and I stood up for my rights as a woman;  the right not to have degrading things whispered to me , offensive emails sent to me or my body not worshipped the way it should be.  Time was when I would have just gone along with it and then taken on the guilt.  For the first time, I regarded my body as a mind/body/spirit unit and I protected this lovely temple that I have been given guardianship of in this lifetime.

I have confided in the Universe that I am ready for a relationship again but could it please be the right one this time and not a test.  I was pretty quick to figure out that the last person I dated was not Mr. Right and in fact definitely not Mr. Right for me. He seemed to be a compilation of every Mr. Wrong I have dated or married and I guess the Universe just wanted to make sure I could see the red flags now! I sure did and now, I am filled with gratitude.  I am grateful for this heart, this body, these hands and this lap that can cozily rock my grandbabies in pure sweet love.  I am grateful for all my beautiful female friends in the message forum who tell their stories and show their courage right along there with their vulnerabilities and who understand and appreciate the true value of compassion and support.  I am blessed to be right where I am right now and to be able to offer the insights I have gained through my trials.  It is an honor to walk with you on our journey to empowerment.

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